kenapa

                                ..D.A.M.A.I..
                                                       Kadang.Datang.Kadang.Hilang

Let it go

                                         Let it flow.Just let it go.Easier said than done.

KiSS

when we were far apart, we blamed the distance, but sometimes we fail to appreciate them when they are soooo close to us.. we fail to realize how precious they are until the day they leave... the most sadist part is when you dont know how you were loved so much till this very day and continue living your life the way you live your life today..

p/s :Well, to be able to love itself is a great blessing, so why stop doing so?

#12daystogo

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Sendiri

Day by day, hustling and struggling to keep her life going. Hiding all the sorrow and pain behind every single swing.. After all, without hurdles, life is nothing but a boring and uninteresting journey without a destination,, worse if accompanied by untruth faith.. what a sad life.. So, kuatkan amal, tawakkal lalu lanjutkan perjalanan! Senyum dan teruskan kehidupan..!


#14daystogo

p/s : Turkish was one of the most wonderful people you might ever encounter in your travelling diary.. at least for me..

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It will

Ronda to Malaga took about 2 hours journey IF and only IF we drive non stop all the way.. After a short break for dinner, in our case was bread and butter with some salts and chips, we set off  that night, that night we slept in the rest area along the way and continue to the city by the break of dawn..

Fajr prayer never felt so cold than this one, winter season by the seaside, and there goes 5 of them .. took their time enjoying the moment, 1 things I learnt about catching sunrise n set is that it WILL leave you..

Yeah, people said the most painful goodbyes are the ones never said, but the heart already knows its over right? .. But worry not! inshaAllah with God's will, you will eventually meet them again.. One fine day, 1 fine day my friend!.. ^^

#15daystogo

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Its a beautiful day

        So that day we raced our Mercedes A180 from Cordoba to Ronda, Spain to catch the sunset there.. 5 of us were nervous enough that none of us utter a single word, hoping that we could get the on time, Alhamdulillah.. upon arriving, the sky was pretty much clear. yeah,, its the golden hour!
Right after Ronda, we set off for Malaga to get some fresh morning air by the seaside..

Travelling with these people make you look forward what kind of beautiful day you are going to see next.. No matter where we sleep,, may it be on those soft bed in Madrid, the stuffy car in Salamanca, even in the Barcelona train station, Its just every single thing in life feels beautiful and meaningful the moment you decide it is.

p/s : when everything seems to end, then only you realize how precious they really are.. well, after all we are human,, For now, take one thing at time and lets live in the present..
Its a beautiful day~~ tetiba ingat si Michael Buble.. kbai!
good day guys! .. ^^


#16daystogo

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You and Me

When we stay too long doing the same thing and repeating the same cycle, we'll find nothing but a very small world.. Try to set your aim high and dream big, for that if cant reach for the stars, you'll land on the beautiful moon,, (sounds terbalik rite? be realistic wei..belok sy suka hati sy lah kan).. Pray that Allah will always open our eyes to see beauty of Him and His creations even in the smallest and ordinary things. aminn..

For his big ambitions, his vast experiences and his complicated sets of emotions, we human have soo many potential within us that we should not limit our self to a certain par. up up and away.. of course la people said lagi tinggi terbang, lagi sakit jatuh,, but hell yeah, who cares! doa dan tawakkal lepas tu senyum dan teruskan kehidupan lah kan..^^

Went to makTok's place yesterday, we had some quality time together,,, unlike the usual long few days visit, this one was a day trip but the quality was never like before,, long stories, good accompany, and of course those beautiful smile n laughter of atok and the siblings, our kakjah is going back to Alex the day after tomorrow punya tomorrow (hambar), better request some good pavlova n foods before she flying back,,

P/s :  Taken during our visit in Switzerland, the majestic Titlis surrounded by his mighty knights. You could brag about travelling around the continent all you want, but for not visiting Swiss, its like not being in Europe at all at the first place, macam makan burger takde patty? Ikea meatball without the sauce, and of coz, nasi lemak x de sambal derr..



#17daystogo

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Life and Love

Some people said, you can have dreams and you can be hopeful, but none of them told you that both can be so hurtful it might crack you into pieces if you do it wrongly.. after all, human are so unpredictable and fragile.. the worst part of us is that we failed to realize that somehow people changed every second.. every single second..

fefeeling throwback after this long road, when everything is about to come to an end.. yet its not necessarily a bad thing to happen because for everything that end marks a new beginning of something else..

see, how much I've grown up after spending some quality time together with friends, it was probably one of my most beautiful trips coz it makes me realize who is the person within me,,, and yeah,, lets continue finding more about him for another 2 years in the strange land far-far away.. well, I'll give some credits to the lovely members of the trip as well.. *kenyit sikit ^^


p/s : one of my favourite couple shot in 2014, its just that i feel so sorry that i cant make it to your beautiful day nanti Pai n yana.. T_T and many thanks too to a friend of mine who actually make me remember i still have this blog lapuk. Oh gosh, it was so freaking dusty. Last post was 4 months ago?? durh
(_ _")

#18daystogo

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the faces that i miss so much..

they looked retarded, they act like retards, they ARE retarded, yet i still love every single of them.. thank you for everything !

of Paris and Love

hooo... last post was when im still a student..woot2.. how time flies.. ya Allah... Alhamdulillah.. done with everything..lapor diri with JPA, done with MMC, submitted everything to KKM and ya.. now menjadi penganggur kehormat till December since my name was not included for the october intake by KKM.. dont know if i should be thankful atau tidak when i saw it on MOH website 2 weeks ago in singapore.. anyway ya.. i guess gonna use this blog yg usang lagi tua ni to fill this empty gap left by my lovely 'student rutine'  *coughblood  

since august, ive been doing some photography works for weddings, prewed, solemnisation and even videography for one of the event.. ye lah, maklum, penganggur while doing these, terperasan dlm laptop buruk ni, tonnes of photos from my jalan2 around which i didnt share n upload in fb.. terasa nk hias this page with loads of photos from my journey, may it be with friends, alone or families.. i just love to travel sooooo much.. ya Allah..rindunya la hai.. 

went to rumah Malaysia for tarawih, n met this beautiful adik.. well ya of coz,, i wish i could get to know her better.. but x sempat lah dik..ada rezeki jumpa lagi ye.. who knows.. this 1 kakak  told me once, "syahir ni datang Paris dah sampai 4 kali,, mcm balik kampung pulak.. hurmm.." Kerja tuhan tu tak ada siapa yg tahu kn.. Kalau dia gerakkan hati kita for something (or even someone..krik..krik..krik..) , aturan Dia juga lah yg akan jadi.. a close brother use to say this to me, "Kita merancang, Allah juga merancang, but ingatlah yang Allah tu sebaik2 Perancang"..

for now.. this is it.. bye2!!

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Of winter, Pencetus ummah and me..

Salam,

terlalu lama menyepi, musim cuti semester sudah seminggu di lalui, winter tahun ni masih nampak segan2 nak cecah -10 .. apatah lagi -20 like usual.. the whole last week i spent in 'Apple House' was one awesome week.. Alhamdulillah, syukran Allah for giving me such a good friends. Haa... malam-malam macam ni, seronok rasa nak menukil apa2.. terlelap sebentar lepas keluar dinner dengan the 'Mindef guys' a.k.a my 2nd family here..they are from RMC (Royal Military Collage) They called it their 'batch's birthday' ..Its their 10th birthday.. Layankan lah, after all , its good to know that they appreciate their togetherness when some of us will never give a damn to such thing.. I would be lying if i say i'm not jealous of them, but what to do? I'm the only Samura guy left here in Moscow.. haish.. Ours gonna be on 8th of  February , (if i'm not wrong)  haha, i wonder if there are still any of Samurian b24 remembered it.. haha no worries, just a random thought.

Only the 2nd week of holiday but somehow it feels like forever.. Ok, back to the main reason why i want to write something at this very time. Haaaa.. (deep breath) .. Like always, when im a lil bit bored in the mid of the day, i would scroll my facebook timeline on my cracked scratched htc One looking for something to read or watch,, weather its an article, match highlight or anything that is worth reading or watching.. After all facebook is a good thing if we use it wisely.

 It was last 2 week when i suddenly realized that i haven't 'cry' for quite sometime. I don't know why but somehow it shoot me right to my mind just before i close my eye that night,but neglect it and told myself that dont be too melancholic particularly at the middle of this cold winter season. somehow i managed to sleep afterward. Thank you Allah.. =) A few days later, somehow while scrolling my facebook timeline before sleep (like always), i end up watching this one video. My friend posted it . Thank to you my dear friend. It was from the 'Pencetus Ummah'. this program had been showing for quite sometime but at that particular night, orang melayu panggil 'tergerak hati' lah to watch some of the contestants  giving speech. I end up watching this young guy, im not sure how old is him, seems to me that hes around my age,handsome, good sense of humor,  giving a wonderful tazkirah about the story of Masyitah, 

Haa, macam mana ? pergi tak penyampaian nya ? I dont know about the others, but this really touched me.. Fuhh.. lepas sekian lama, rupa2nya Allah jadikan this video sebagai jalan untuk melembutkan hati, melentur nurani yang terlalu lama mengeras tanpa siraman.. Moga Allah mudahkan urusan daku, dan kamu di luar sana,, untuk sama2 lebih mendekatkan diri dengan Pencipta, dan terus berjiwa hamba..inshaAllah..

“Belum tibakah saatnya bagi orang-orang yang beriman untuk khusyu’ hati mereka karena dzikir [mengingat dan menyebut nama] Allah dan kebenaran [Al-Qur'an] yang turun…” 
(. Al-Hadid : 16)

Culture shock sedikit dengan beberapa perkara yang berlaku di sekeliling diri,, mudahan Allah tabahkan hati untuk diri ini, menjadi lebih tabah, sabar dan kuat menghadapi hari2 mendatang.. macam mana nak jadi doktor yang kental ni, kalau jasmani dan rohani tak diisi dan dilatih kuat2.. fuhh.. Ok sambung cuti..

last year's winter. A frozen lake behind my hostel. still waiting for the right time this winter though

p/s : Another 2 weeks and i'll be in Istanbul for my last winter trip. exploring Turkey for 2 weeks inshaAllah.. and  between that ? Ma asked me to do some aerobic haha , brisk walking (winter nih =.= ) , and others, we will see lah ma ye.. :) Salam

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Puisi Buat Sahabat

Mengenang Rindu

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

dalam bicaranya penuh hikmah,

bersamanya aku tenang,

dalam tegurnya disimpul tawa..

ditunggu selalu berdamping sama.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

hatinya besar sebesar gunung,

dibalik laut disimpan rapi,

meninggi tidak cukup santunnya,

menjadi pulau hentian resah.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

marahnya lekas selekas kilat,

suamnya pasti bak embun pagi,

sekumit sabar rencah talian,

ikhlas teras peyambung senyuman.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

ringannya pundak alasan saja,

dalam jiwa badai gelora,

peranda hati tuju yang Esa,

hanya Tuhan tempat gantungannya.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

 lakunya cepat mengundang duka,

diamnya pantas mengundang lega,

katanya racun mengundang lara,

senyumnya tajam dihiris sinis.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

menghisap nira bagai tak ingat,

adanya dia mengundang hemat,

bukan berkira bukan mengata,

sedarkan dia hilang sengketa.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat, 

senangkan insan amalan harian,

hulurkan tangan ringankan beban,

 tak kira masa tak kira waktu,

hilang seminggu terasa rindu.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat, 

mencurah ilmu tiada ingat,

berhabis keringat kering kudrat,

asalkan sampai hajat amanat,

tuntut akhirat itulah matlamat.

Disini tanahnya banyak berbakti,
disini buminya banyak mengisi, 
Melentur diri, meluhur nurani, 
mengajar erti hidup dan memberi
Bersama mereka mengenal Illahi.

Aku terkenang akan diriku,

keliling diri ramai berdiri,

harus diambil baiknya jati,

sompeknya cengal ditinggal tepi,

kerna manusia sempurna tiada,

Elokkah aku cukupkah aku,

dimata Pencipta dimata hamba,

moga Allah ampunkan dosa,

andaiku pergi adakah yang sudi,

menyiram pusara menghantar doa,

23/11/13

Yang ikhlas,

Sahabatmu

Sayangku

Aku lihat ia membunuh,

membunuh bait bait kata,

menghilang sentuhan jiwa menghapus bicara,

menjurang insan sesama mereka.

aku lihat ia menjerut,

menjerut perlahan lahan,

setiap amalan suruhan tuhan,,

melayang naluri terbang kejauhan.

aku lihat ia mengheret ,

membawa lengah dalam perintah,

melari hati dari Illahi..

kabur di litup debuan palsu

aku lihat aku pejam aku hadam,

payah merasa parah membara,

cangkir kasih buat saudara,

jangan terbuang dilarut masa..

6/11/13

tulus hatiku, 

SAHABATmu

The hero of my life..

Happy Father's Day bah,, You're always my all time favourite friend, super duper cool brother and magnificently awesome dad.. and you always know that rite ? ;) Want to get to know this superman ? (click here)

How can i not love both of them ? moga ALlah panjangkan usia Abah n Ma dalam iman,, jadikan anak2 yang soleh dan solehah,,permudahkankan urusan didunia juga akhirat.. aminn

10 more days and i will be meeting them in Changi inshaALlah,,
moga ALlah mudahkan urusan,, aminn..

Keredhaan ALlah tergantung pada keredhaan orang tuanya, dan kemurkaan Allah terletak pada kemurkaan orang tuanya.( Hadis riwayat al-Tirmidzi di dalam Sunannya, no: 1821)

p/s :Note 1 :  Paediatrics on Tuesday and Infectious on the 24th,, be strong syahir.. aminn..

Note 2 : Kebetulan Nurul n Fuad pun exam selasa ni,, mohon includekan semua dalam doanya ya , (buat siapa yg mendoakan..=)

Note 3 : Mohon JKNK reply la email application practical gue.. x nak susahkan ma gi pejabat awak kat Air Molek tu,, adoii,, 



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my day so far... haaa alhamdulillah

Salam,

Alhamdulillah, sudah tidak lama sebelum menjejak kaki ke bumi Malaysia semula,,, bermacam macam plan telah disusun, harap semua berjalan dengan elok sejahtera.. aminn.. 2 hari lepas , keputusan MARA teahpun diumumkan.. syukur ke hadrat Ilahi, Fadzli berjaya dapat tawaran pengajian Bahasa ke France,, dalam 1 bulan lagi akan masuk ke kolej persedian Intec,, tempat aku sendiri melalui kehidupan kolej persediaan 3 bulan sebelum meneruskan perjalanan ke bumi Russia ni..

Sedih dalam gembira, well, itu perasaan yang mungkin akan dirasai oleh Ma n abah, memandangkn sorang lagi anakanda tersayang bakal meninggalkan halaman .. menuntut engajian 5 tahun di tanah seberang.. Tinggal lah Mur sensorang di Msia ,, itupun dekat MCKK, 1 - 2 bulan sekali baru balik.. haila.. mohon abah n Ma tabah selalu.. abang pun dah nk habis, fuad pun dah nk habis,, kami lah akan menyerikan taman perling dalam 1-2 tahun lagi.. hehe... 

so, tiket balik dah un beli 27/6 akan sampai lerr di Changi, Singapore,, the next week straight ke Aussie, dengan abah n Ma, hee,, 1 minggu,, diorang balik, but im staying nk puasa dengan Fuad lah konon,, plus Akmal will be flying too on the 2nd week tu, so kami bergathering 5 Arif lah di sana,, Akmal, Botak, Me and Su,, + Fuad (special case)..\

Apapun bersedia lah untuk final exam dulu.. 3 paper to go.. bersyukur sebab Allah dah mudahkan banyak dah.. need to apply for practical lagi,, x buat2 lagi.. haila... @.@ .. thinking of doing it in district hospital, Kulaijaya lagi lah rasanya.. hoho.. harap Allah mudahkan.. cuak pun ada,, x berkeyakinan pun ada.. konflik dalaman yg biasa utk pelajar2 luar negara ,, mohon doakn semua dipermudahkan ye.. =)

Port Vell, Barcelona.

Sesungguhnya pada pertukaran malam dan siang itu dan pada apa yang diciptakan Allah di langit dan di bumi, benar-benar terdapat tanda-tanda (kekuasaan-Nya) bagi orang- orang yang bertakwa..(Surah Yunus : 6 ) 


Ahad ni ada join tennis tournament, inter-university, hooo, excited gilaaa... walau x sure dah comlete recovery ke belum, but i really hope that i can join n play.. lama beno dah x main sejak habis operation hari tu.. lari pun x tahu cuku kuat ke x,, but i still hv 4 days to prepare... need to use this time wisely.. =) wish me luck n doakan berjaya selamat semuanya ye .. hoo.. balik msia dengan senang hati..
aminn..

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Aku dan hari ini - Tatkala aku sendiri..

Eiffel tower, Paris

Aku dan Hari ini..


Lama sudah aku berpaling,
angkuh dalam langkah,

menongkah arus suci adDin,
asyik dalam buaian jahiliyah.

Taburan nikmat yang kuabaikan,
kelopak iman yang kusiakan,
gugur layu tiada bersemai,
hilang subur dalam harumnya.

Aku rindukan waktu itu,
kalbu jernih cerminan iman,
linang titis titis air mata,
tunduk memanjat doa suci.

Serahku padaMu Pemilik Hati,
menghangat kembali cinta ini,
mengisi gersang kendi sanubari,
yang meruntun cintaMu ya Robbi..



Yang demikian itu disebabkan karena sesungguhnya mereka mencintai kehidupan di dunia lebih dari akhirat, dan bahwasanya Allah tiada memberi petunjuk kepada kaum yang kafir. (16:107)

p/s : Alhamdulillah.. syukur kepadaNya, kerna walau serba dalam tak mengena,, masih ada Dia tempat untuk kusandar..

# in rememberance of Naqbah Day (15/5/1948)
#Happy Teacher's Day buat guru guru tersayang, jasa kalian tidak terbilang... (16 May)


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Spring scents

Salam, 

   Sedar x sedar, dah pun masuk  spring .. Done with  therapy final.. preparing for Surgery and gynecology the day after tomorrow.. syukur kerna masih diberi nafas utk berpijak atas bumi cinta ini.. mudahan Allah mudahkan urusan diri utk terus mengejar cintaNya.. 

   So last week, we had our spring gathering, meeting friends and spent some nice time together.. masing2 sibuk dengan cycle yg berbeza, namun aktiviti cukup menjadi medium pengikat antara kita.. 

Kasih abah bawa ke Syurga.. InshaAllah..

konflik hati #PRU13

Sometimes i sits and thinks, and sometimes i just sits..

Akif with his beautiful eyes

   The next day , we had a surprise birthday party for this one nice friend of mine, extremely good in baking , and honestly shes the one who introduced photography to me... =).. introducing Miss Liyana Nadia binti Zulkifli..

     Im taking this opportunity to promote her website ( Into the oven  )..Various cupcakes , cakes, brownies and many other pastries.. Beautiful and tempting isn't it ? yeah I know.. hee..even my mom is a fan of hers since the last time she got some air time on TV9 for some Ramadhan program..

The birthday girl

gp89 surprise birthday party.. perfect 1Malaysia i guess ?

Espana*  (last trip)

how it brings happiness to us.. (Espana*)

p/s : Demam PRU13 masih x habis lagi.. buka fb , twitter pun naik muak dengan segala asam garam GE ni.. cuma terus dalam doaku biar yang Haq itu tertegak di bumi Malaysia.. umm, lagi...application for practical x hantar lagi.. still x decide to go for GH Sultanah Aminah or district in Kulaijaya.. plus plan for Aussie visit this summer pun belum finalize lagi.. gonna finish all this and then only start thinking about this holiday / school trip (Akmal abby will be with me there.. meeting fuad, botak, Su 5Arif most wanted.. lol) 

xsabar.. -____-

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Canon 135mm f2L- of St. Basil and Arbat street

last weekend we decided to have a stroll along Arbat Street until Red Square in the heart of Moscow, it  was a fine day, with beautiful people spending the weekend with their love ones..,Me n Kobe decided to give our new gear a try here..He came with his new 50mm f1.4 and me with this new ' girlfriend '.. hihi .some random photo on the street..before we went back home. It has been quite sometimes since our last outing together, put those blame on Pediatrics, infectious, and ENT cycle.. All praise to Allah the almighty for giving us this opportunity to at least have a break and see the world spinning..  (constructive criticism are most welcome.. =)

St. Basil cathedral 

Jewel on the street

The colour of passion 

The unseen Love

My art speaks for me

I'm the Boss..

Renungan lisanku.. 

somehow i find this painter REALLY look like my favourite Iker Casillas, maybe in 10 years ? hope u gonna be well San Iker..! 

Searching for the unknown

My partner in crime.. Danial the traveler.. =D hes one fine guy (promoting ).. =)

Because laughter is the best medicine

Love blooms

With you till my last breath

p/s : wish me luck for my next posting,, it gonna be the long long surgery and gynecology cycle with loads of travelling... hope everything gonna be just fine.. inshaALlah.. hv a good day guys..
salam


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le random me

salam guys,,
alhamdulillah the weekend is here... but that fact doesn't change anything.. tomorrow morning, we gonna have Paediatrics lecture at 8.30 till 12pm and continue with a philosophy subject starting from 3...zzZzZ
somehow, for this semester i've been getting so many the so called 'killer' teacher.. hurmm.. but i hope this will not make me feel down nor making my 2nd semester's life upside down..

umm, anyway alhamdulillah and syukur to Allah for giving me soo much in my 23 years of life, which i rarely appreciate.. astaghfirullah3x.. lets become a better muslim in every single thing we do, every breath we take, and every steps we make .. inshaALlah... =)

been thinking of doing some paediatrics kidney disease notes for Monday class alongside pharynx disease for ENT (ear,nose and throat).. hoo.. planning to visit Apple house tomorrow night, and have some meeting on Sunday which makes me feel i really need to have them done by tonight, inshaALlah..

thats all for this short update, really feel like writing lately.. wish me luck preparing for paediatrics final MCQ, 400 russian questions to be digested.. inshaAllah tade masalah ..aminn.. =)

p/s : I've been receiving quite a lot of traffic from ' Sunnyvale, California' lately, i wonder if its really some Malaysian visitor visiting my blog or some random phishing website .. huu.. hopefully ada yang mendapat ibrah atau apa2 yg bermanfaat dari blog ni... anyway hv a good weekend and spend them wisely since time will always there if we want to make room for them..=) (a classmate of mine keep on blabbering on this phrase throughout this week -____- ..)

Espana 13'

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