nur itu...

gembire x sememstinye bile anda tersenyum bukan??=)..
aku setuju sgt dengan kata2 itu...
aku pernah terfikir,
semoga hidup ini lebih bermakna..
sebenarnye ia dahpon cukup bermakna,
mungkin hanya mata hati ini masih pejam,
lama benarkah cinta itu kubiarkan terbiar?
lama benarkah cinta itu kubiarkan tersasar?
mencari sesuatu yg sering berubah,
lagi sering tidak menentu,
membiarkan yg abadi itu jauh,

pagi kuingat,
petang ku alpa,
pernah menangis keranamu,
kemudian tertawa semula,

bait2 yg pernah dialun,
tapi hati hanya biarkan ia terus beralun,
tanpa mendasari mereka sebaiknya,
harap nur itu tidak pergi,
tetap temani diri hingga ke liang semadi..
mukmin sejati,
itulah sekilas harapan di sudut hati..
seperti hati2 saudara2ku yg lain ..



ingatan tulus ikhlas tidak lain tidak bukan
utk hati yg paling dekat dengan mulut yg berbicara dan jari yg menaip ini..
dan saudara2ku yg lain jua..

harge 3 cup of McFlurry kat perling mall...

hush..
today i woke up in d morning with 1 mission,,
go to mur's school to take his report card on bhalf of my parent,,
they cant make it since both of them in charge for the registration of new student
there in UTM skudai..
act mur need to b there early in d morning(8 if im nt mistaken),
but to bad,
going with me, i cant simply join all the parents to listen to those talks n motivation session..
so we left ini rumah at 12,,huhu..take the number and start our waiting session..
durh..seriously i hate waiting.. so i simply take a walk in dat hall, i met my teachers there..
buy some time by chatting with them,,and then only number 40 being called..
haha..finish with d meeting,, mur and i sat in d car,
and suddenly he said that it would be nice if we have some mcFlurry..
at first i was like having quite a bad feeling for this, but since d mall was just about 200m from where i parked d car,i simply agree with him,,
then only this thing happened,
while i was on my way to push d button on d machine so that d rod rose up,dan seterusnye mmbolehkan saye enter d car park,tibe2..
my car gatal2 mau cium bumper depan kte belakang pulak...
haish..
ok let me write this so that from d readers view like im d one who at d wrong side,,(mmg sala aku pon..)
i went too fast to d front until i pass d machine, so i reversed a bit,, since pesona's bonnet is quite high, so i didnt realize that an alfa romeo was really behind me, and within 2 sec,
'bam'...
warh,,,, wth,,,,
i go out from my car,
run to d machine and make dat historical rod go up, (aku x kan lupekan ko dow wahai palang yg berbelang2)
drive a bit and park near by..
going out of my car with wat we call 'muke suci', (i dunno if i had 1)
and met with dat alfa romeo driver,,,
haish..
a big guy, real big man,, since hes much2 bigger den me, with his kalut face,
like dunno anything,,keca2..
so i went to see how his car is..first i saw a few scratches..
and then a small crack,,
a small crack?? and wanna talk much..(dat 1 i didnt speak out loud there..haish)

bang, maaf la bang,, saya x perasan la.. kite pon tersilap jugak, x sengaja la bang...bla3....

ni bukan ape dik, crack nih, kalo nak ganti beribu nih,, stakat calar tu abg x kesa..ni crack nih kene ganti sume bumper depan nih"

i was like,, wtfish.. for d small crack of as big as 3 cm long with d width of sebatang lidi sate,..

x kan nak beribu bro.. mane saye mampu, kalau beratus tu mungkin bole lerr saye ikhtiarkan..

trying skill meraih simpati..haha
lastly i called my dad,
let he talked to this guy,
as he talked to abah,
what else u xpect me to do??
i oso dunno wat to do time tu..
other den bace ayat kursi,, aku hembus kat depan muke bro tu..
harap2 atie die lermbut lerr senng lepas dugaan nih..
=,(..
a few min after that, everything has been settled,i gave him my number, address and a few photos of d cars, even my I/c.. haih..
dah abis sume,, i ask mur jom la gi beli aiskrim mur..firstly he said that,,
caer,, mur cam da x de mood la,.
sian je aku dgr..
i said lerr
its ok lerr..mur pegi la beli abang tunggu dlm kete...
cam x bebaloi lerr klu da undergo sume tu but go back ngn tangan kosong...
so i parked dengan penuh berhemah there, ask mur to go to d mcD inside while i stayed in d car,
thinking and trying to b +ve..
i gave abah a call..saying that im really sorry for those thing that happened just now..huh..
how sad..
abah told me that, its ok je.. he said dat kadang2 abng kene belaja gak care nak hidop..
excel dlm study je x cukup..(abang mne de xcel lorh dlm study, hidop tu mmg saye ngaku saye kene blaja lg yerr bah..haha)
makan skit aiskrim tu dlm kete smbil mengenang nasib,,
then only we went back,hoho,
fikir2 balik, maybe tadi terlupe nak bace doa naik kenderaan kot..
tu lerr manusie,, da susa br nak igt tuhan..
cmon syahir..dugaan2...
stay cool n be urself..bole2..
susa utk aku pegang stereng kete tu balik,,
x pe lerr..hopefully gonna b just fine ..
psanih maybe nak ajak ayil gi shopping ..
nak beli kasut futsal..
and for sure this time yil,,
u drive me to angsana k..
i think i type to much here..
and really feel like need to stop now..
haha...
surely today was quite a long day 4 me,
after a few days lying helplessly dlm bilik x buat ape2..
harap sgt x de lerr bende2 pelik lg lepas nih..
aminn,..


pen off...

alhamdulillah..

alhamdulillah,,
syukur slamat sume..
dpt jejakkan kaki semula kesini.
lihat wajah org yg tersayang..
huhu..
gembire jelas terpapar disetiap redup pandangn ibu,
syukur jelas terpancar dari pandangn kasih ayah,
dan adik2 yg lain sume..
take care gak sume2 yg balik nih..
=)
H1N1, risau gak but so far alhamdulillah,,
almost all number dak2 moscow, da ilang,,
kobe on9 cepat2..
nak amik dr ko...
=D..
okeh...
insyaallah lrr kt umah pon leh update blog kan..
=)..
suke hati...
alhamdulillah....

bisik hati..

sinar mentari pagi pada pukul 4.45 pg,
duduk aku menghadap lap top nih,
untuk kali terakhirnya buat ketika ini,
last post kat pushkin,(maybe)
last post as 705-ian,,
last post as a first year student,
umm,,
time ni,
x lain yg blegar2 dlm benak,
melainkan fikiran cuba bermain dengan perasaan,
mungkin terasa agak gembira,utk ketempat asal,
namun , mungkin jua lebih sedih,
kerana bakal meninggalkan bilik ini dan isinya,
umm,,
x de lg frod(fuad) membebel pagi2 cam mak nenek (seriously, kak radhi pon setuju),
boya(qaiyum) dengn ayat2 cinta die,
danial(kobe) ngn winning11 n tutorial session die,
arif(kumbang) ngn kehidupan kanak2 riang die,
(sekadar nama manje seume tu..=p)
kadang2 fikiran ini melayang jugak,
memikirkan bagaimane nnti kehidupan dlm 2nd year,
yg paling jelas berubah surely kedudukan tempat tinggal,
maybe berpindah ke hostel lain,
maybe,x lagi bersama sama,satu hostel,apatah lagi satu bilik,
surely akan terasa bezanya kehidupan,
sorangtukang kasut tiba2 di suruh bermain muzik,
bagaimanepon mesti terase kelainan nyer lah,
dan tiap2 kali itu jugak aku cube memujuk semula hati,
redha dengan perubahan ini, menjadi lebih bersyukur,
sebb diri ni masih lagi kabur dlm imaginasi,
tidak berpijak pada bumi yg nyata,
inginkan kesempurnaan segala macam,
hingga lupa cuba mensyukuri dan menghargai,
apa yg sedaang ada digenggam tangan,
terus mengharap yg lebih sempurna,
tapi yg sempurna itu tidak sentiasanya ada,
dan fitrah manusia itu tidak akan pernah berubah,
hanya cuba menghargai sesuatu itu dengan lebih lg,
selepas ianya berlalu pergi,,
mungkin ini satu dari lumrah kehidupan,
tapi boleh jadi,
mungkin ia manis bagi mereka yg cuba menyelami..
=)
d truth is,I love n surely gonna miss u guys,,=)

pen off..

budak nerd...

saya sekarang tgh break sebentar,,
saya sedang menunggu nak makan..
selepas ini sambung..
kepala rasa berdenyut-dengut...
2 hari lagi,,
maybe nih sindrom gen chem yg gile kot..
haish...
da struggle to d fullest??...
tapi,,jgn x igt tuhan pulak yerr kur2..
doa2..
yosh..
makan dulu...
gastr kene jage..
=D..

pen off...

miss Mr. Ooi...

chem
chem
chem
chem
chem
chem
chem
chem
and chem..
thousand times better rasenyer...
cube blaja jadik redha..
gambatte....
syahir..
wish syahir all d best..
and good luck too..
semoge lerr lepas chem dengn jayenyer..


pen off..

throw out of kilter...

suddently tonight,i felt so empty,
filled with hatred,,
annoyed and pissed off,,
umm, yesterday,
learned something new i guess,,
never disturb ili takes anything which is not urs,,
umm,abselutely rite..
waiting for chemisty xm,,
and its killing me..
maybe should do something other than keep on wondering things that are abselutely ridiculous..
sometimes i just dont understand what did i do yesterday,
and just cant imagine what am i gonna do tomorrow..
people said that everything that happened had their own reasons..
i just cant see through it..
just the pain of a thousand needles piercing here n there..
maybe should stay put n doing nothing more..
should back to basic kot..
really will let the time lead this time..
coz I did not find it,
but how it has come, and find me.
I have an opportunity in react,
it wrapped it around in my warm.
Night as a thief,which come and go.
even d moon says nothing other then let he go,
following what he should do...
d sunnatullah that had been told to him..
I have nothing, but the visual reflex.
Until the opportunity to come back,
dont even know if there gonna be 1 but,
I will just let my thoughts dance in the wind.

dust........

ingatan tulus ikhlas tidak lain tidak bukan
utk hati yg paling dekat dengan mulut yg berbicara dan jari yg menaip ini..
dan saudara2ku yg lain jua..
=)

coretan tanpa nama..

Diri mampu ketawa,
diri mampu tersenyum,
sekadar utk mengaburi,
segala hiba dan kegusaran,
betul ke perlu disimpan sendirian,
tak usah disingkap, apa yg tersirat didalam,
andai yg tersurat diluar masih betul terungkai,
cukup sekadar diri hadir dlm lakonan,
watak2 yg terus berlayar,
di tengah pentas dunia,
terus hanyut dibawa dorongan palsu,
hingga lupa tujuan diri dipilih,
untuk membawa panji addin itu,
aku masih lg memujuk hati,
melentur diri,
untuk terus belajar,
berpasrah hati,
berserah diri,
pada yg maha Mencipta,
sungguh hanya Dia yg tahu,
apa yg lebih baik untuk hamba2nya...