life ada up and down nya..

kadang2 x faham dengan orang yg sangat2 mementingkan diri,, u can have mine, but i cant even touch yours ? u can take everything from me, but when it comes to you, everything must be according to what u want and how u want them to be,, it doesnt make sense at all la when we actually live in the so called 'kehidupan bermasyarakat' ni,, well, i guess Allah wanna tell me to improve 'patience' /sabar/ redha/ tabah dalam hati kecil ni..ya Allah permudahkanlah urusan,,

haa, agak emo disitu kan,, well, im not sure why, but im being kind of a bit too sensitive lately, may it be bcoz of hidup yg makin mencabar ni ke, cuaca ke, temperature mungkin, but haha,, thats its just too hard for me,,sabar syahir.. today marked the 4th day of my fever beaver.. the whole pediatrics lecture ter soksek soksek,, agaknye those russians sebelah pon naik geli kut,, amende lerr mamat ni kan,,Kesihatan~~ nikmat yang kadangkala aku lupekan sampai lerr suatu masa Allah uji kita melalui jalan ini. “Nah kau wahai hambaKu! Aku rindu rintihanmu! Ayuh, merintihlah pada-Ku”. Mungkin tu yg Allah nak sampaikan pada ak..

alhamdulillah, today is my 16th day doing this strict life regime , people asked me what is the meaning of those thing since i counted every single day and updated them to my twitter, haa, anyway inshaAllah will do my very best till day30-end..thank you Ma for keeping me doing my annual full blood test, so that i can know the current condition my amad caer,, lot of love for ma,,

 yesterday kak JR called, asking hows everything, from my operations to fadzli's preparation for SPM which will take place in about 11 days lagi,,  inshaALlah kalau tiada aral melintang, boleh la visit kakJr di Paris winter holiday nnti.. harap x de masalah,, dengarnye S/U tok ambassador ke france ni, die nak masakkan sambal petai udang sambal udang petai  nnti, haha,,tah mane petai datang ke paris ak pun x tau,, 
 told ma n abah about the plan, umm, slamat mendapat restu ..hee,, since they knew kakJR too sejak the last 3 years,, 

terfikir nak angkat 100mmf2.8 or 135mmf2 or 17-40mmf4 and 430exii,,, tapi rase sayang plak nak buang dwet ke situ,, lambat2 nnti surut la die,, keinginan manusie,, mane pernah puas,, astaghfirullah...for now tumpukan psychiatric exam dulu, 2 minggu lagi.. mohon doakan ahmad syahir di tabahkan hati di mudahkan urusan...aminn...

not all things can be seen by our eyes, so do human my friend..^^ 

“IA tahu segala yang di langit dan di bumi. IA tahu segala yang kamu sembunyikan, dan segala yang kamu nyatakan. ALLAH tahu benar isi hati sanubari”.  (64 : 4)

pen off..

tarbiyah of the week..

salam,, it has been a while since the last time i wrote something here,,

but this story really made me wanna put it here so that this memory can last longer for me and others..

inshaAllah..

3 days ago, i lost my metro pass and my temporary passport otw back from class which is sooo important to me that if i were caught by the police in the street without them, i might be dragged to the station, and the student metro pass which make me save almost half of the monthly fees compared to the normal pass..

 i was soo down n felt helpless,as i have no one to rely on other than Him, i prayed hard and keep on thinking that He will not test us more than what we can take,, and u know what, yesterday a kind russian lady actually found and returned them to my hostel guard,, i was soo thankful and its really a great tarbiyah for me to put my faith more in Him.. (alhamdulillah..^^)

Allah does not charge a soul except [with that within] its capacity. It will have [the consequence of] what [good] it has gained, and it will bear [the consequence of] what [evil] it has earned. "Our Lord, do not impose blame upon us if we have forgotten or erred. Our Lord, and lay not upon us a burden like that which You laid upon those before us. Our Lord, and burden us not with that which we have no ability to bear. And pardon us; and forgive us; and have mercy upon us. You are our protector, so give us victory over the disbelieving people. (2: 286)

wasnt it sweet when Allah reply your prayer right in front of you,, why we still have doubt and keep our distance from Him yet to us He is sooo close, closer than we and the vein in our neck?

It was We who created man and We know what dark suggestions his soul makes to him: for We are nearer to him than (his) jugular vein. (50:16)

pen off...