kenapa

                                ..D.A.M.A.I..
                                                       Kadang.Datang.Kadang.Hilang

KiSS

when we were far apart, we blamed the distance, but sometimes we fail to appreciate them when they are soooo close to us.. we fail to realize how precious they are until the day they leave... the most sadist part is when you dont know how you were loved so much till this very day and continue living your life the way you live your life today..

p/s :Well, to be able to love itself is a great blessing, so why stop doing so?

#12daystogo

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Sendiri

Day by day, hustling and struggling to keep her life going. Hiding all the sorrow and pain behind every single swing.. After all, without hurdles, life is nothing but a boring and uninteresting journey without a destination,, worse if accompanied by untruth faith.. what a sad life.. So, kuatkan amal, tawakkal lalu lanjutkan perjalanan! Senyum dan teruskan kehidupan..!


#14daystogo

p/s : Turkish was one of the most wonderful people you might ever encounter in your travelling diary.. at least for me..

Pen off,

It will

Ronda to Malaga took about 2 hours journey IF and only IF we drive non stop all the way.. After a short break for dinner, in our case was bread and butter with some salts and chips, we set off  that night, that night we slept in the rest area along the way and continue to the city by the break of dawn..

Fajr prayer never felt so cold than this one, winter season by the seaside, and there goes 5 of them .. took their time enjoying the moment, 1 things I learnt about catching sunrise n set is that it WILL leave you..

Yeah, people said the most painful goodbyes are the ones never said, but the heart already knows its over right? .. But worry not! inshaAllah with God's will, you will eventually meet them again.. One fine day, 1 fine day my friend!.. ^^

#15daystogo

Pen off,

Its a beautiful day

        So that day we raced our Mercedes A180 from Cordoba to Ronda, Spain to catch the sunset there.. 5 of us were nervous enough that none of us utter a single word, hoping that we could get the on time, Alhamdulillah.. upon arriving, the sky was pretty much clear. yeah,, its the golden hour!
Right after Ronda, we set off for Malaga to get some fresh morning air by the seaside..

Travelling with these people make you look forward what kind of beautiful day you are going to see next.. No matter where we sleep,, may it be on those soft bed in Madrid, the stuffy car in Salamanca, even in the Barcelona train station, Its just every single thing in life feels beautiful and meaningful the moment you decide it is.

p/s : when everything seems to end, then only you realize how precious they really are.. well, after all we are human,, For now, take one thing at time and lets live in the present..
Its a beautiful day~~ tetiba ingat si Michael Buble.. kbai!
good day guys! .. ^^


#16daystogo

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You and Me

When we stay too long doing the same thing and repeating the same cycle, we'll find nothing but a very small world.. Try to set your aim high and dream big, for that if cant reach for the stars, you'll land on the beautiful moon,, (sounds terbalik rite? be realistic wei..belok sy suka hati sy lah kan).. Pray that Allah will always open our eyes to see beauty of Him and His creations even in the smallest and ordinary things. aminn..

For his big ambitions, his vast experiences and his complicated sets of emotions, we human have soo many potential within us that we should not limit our self to a certain par. up up and away.. of course la people said lagi tinggi terbang, lagi sakit jatuh,, but hell yeah, who cares! doa dan tawakkal lepas tu senyum dan teruskan kehidupan lah kan..^^

Went to makTok's place yesterday, we had some quality time together,,, unlike the usual long few days visit, this one was a day trip but the quality was never like before,, long stories, good accompany, and of course those beautiful smile n laughter of atok and the siblings, our kakjah is going back to Alex the day after tomorrow punya tomorrow (hambar), better request some good pavlova n foods before she flying back,,

P/s :  Taken during our visit in Switzerland, the majestic Titlis surrounded by his mighty knights. You could brag about travelling around the continent all you want, but for not visiting Swiss, its like not being in Europe at all at the first place, macam makan burger takde patty? Ikea meatball without the sauce, and of coz, nasi lemak x de sambal derr..



#17daystogo

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Life and Love

Some people said, you can have dreams and you can be hopeful, but none of them told you that both can be so hurtful it might crack you into pieces if you do it wrongly.. after all, human are so unpredictable and fragile.. the worst part of us is that we failed to realize that somehow people changed every second.. every single second..

fefeeling throwback after this long road, when everything is about to come to an end.. yet its not necessarily a bad thing to happen because for everything that end marks a new beginning of something else..

see, how much I've grown up after spending some quality time together with friends, it was probably one of my most beautiful trips coz it makes me realize who is the person within me,,, and yeah,, lets continue finding more about him for another 2 years in the strange land far-far away.. well, I'll give some credits to the lovely members of the trip as well.. *kenyit sikit ^^


p/s : one of my favourite couple shot in 2014, its just that i feel so sorry that i cant make it to your beautiful day nanti Pai n yana.. T_T and many thanks too to a friend of mine who actually make me remember i still have this blog lapuk. Oh gosh, it was so freaking dusty. Last post was 4 months ago?? durh
(_ _")

#18daystogo

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Dateline

When we have a dateline, we feel that time flies very fast,, before we realize it, 1 day has already passed.. it hits me direct while i was walking to class this morning..Itu baru hal2 kecil atas muka bumi ni,, If we really realize that our 'dateline' in this dunya will finally come 1 day,, will we act like the way we acted today? will we live our life the way we always do until this very day ? 

astaghfirullah.. 

p/s : Cepatnya lahai minggu ini berlalu hampir ke hujungnya.. Dia lebih tahu tentang hamba2Nya..             Allahurobbi, tabahkan hati ini... aminn

Of winter, Pencetus ummah and me..

Salam,

terlalu lama menyepi, musim cuti semester sudah seminggu di lalui, winter tahun ni masih nampak segan2 nak cecah -10 .. apatah lagi -20 like usual.. the whole last week i spent in 'Apple House' was one awesome week.. Alhamdulillah, syukran Allah for giving me such a good friends. Haa... malam-malam macam ni, seronok rasa nak menukil apa2.. terlelap sebentar lepas keluar dinner dengan the 'Mindef guys' a.k.a my 2nd family here..they are from RMC (Royal Military Collage) They called it their 'batch's birthday' ..Its their 10th birthday.. Layankan lah, after all , its good to know that they appreciate their togetherness when some of us will never give a damn to such thing.. I would be lying if i say i'm not jealous of them, but what to do? I'm the only Samura guy left here in Moscow.. haish.. Ours gonna be on 8th of  February , (if i'm not wrong)  haha, i wonder if there are still any of Samurian b24 remembered it.. haha no worries, just a random thought.

Only the 2nd week of holiday but somehow it feels like forever.. Ok, back to the main reason why i want to write something at this very time. Haaaa.. (deep breath) .. Like always, when im a lil bit bored in the mid of the day, i would scroll my facebook timeline on my cracked scratched htc One looking for something to read or watch,, weather its an article, match highlight or anything that is worth reading or watching.. After all facebook is a good thing if we use it wisely.

 It was last 2 week when i suddenly realized that i haven't 'cry' for quite sometime. I don't know why but somehow it shoot me right to my mind just before i close my eye that night,but neglect it and told myself that dont be too melancholic particularly at the middle of this cold winter season. somehow i managed to sleep afterward. Thank you Allah.. =) A few days later, somehow while scrolling my facebook timeline before sleep (like always), i end up watching this one video. My friend posted it . Thank to you my dear friend. It was from the 'Pencetus Ummah'. this program had been showing for quite sometime but at that particular night, orang melayu panggil 'tergerak hati' lah to watch some of the contestants  giving speech. I end up watching this young guy, im not sure how old is him, seems to me that hes around my age,handsome, good sense of humor,  giving a wonderful tazkirah about the story of Masyitah, 

Haa, macam mana ? pergi tak penyampaian nya ? I dont know about the others, but this really touched me.. Fuhh.. lepas sekian lama, rupa2nya Allah jadikan this video sebagai jalan untuk melembutkan hati, melentur nurani yang terlalu lama mengeras tanpa siraman.. Moga Allah mudahkan urusan daku, dan kamu di luar sana,, untuk sama2 lebih mendekatkan diri dengan Pencipta, dan terus berjiwa hamba..inshaAllah..

“Belum tibakah saatnya bagi orang-orang yang beriman untuk khusyu’ hati mereka karena dzikir [mengingat dan menyebut nama] Allah dan kebenaran [Al-Qur'an] yang turun…” 
(. Al-Hadid : 16)

Culture shock sedikit dengan beberapa perkara yang berlaku di sekeliling diri,, mudahan Allah tabahkan hati untuk diri ini, menjadi lebih tabah, sabar dan kuat menghadapi hari2 mendatang.. macam mana nak jadi doktor yang kental ni, kalau jasmani dan rohani tak diisi dan dilatih kuat2.. fuhh.. Ok sambung cuti..

last year's winter. A frozen lake behind my hostel. still waiting for the right time this winter though

p/s : Another 2 weeks and i'll be in Istanbul for my last winter trip. exploring Turkey for 2 weeks inshaAllah.. and  between that ? Ma asked me to do some aerobic haha , brisk walking (winter nih =.= ) , and others, we will see lah ma ye.. :) Salam

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Puisi Buat Sahabat

Mengenang Rindu

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

dalam bicaranya penuh hikmah,

bersamanya aku tenang,

dalam tegurnya disimpul tawa..

ditunggu selalu berdamping sama.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

hatinya besar sebesar gunung,

dibalik laut disimpan rapi,

meninggi tidak cukup santunnya,

menjadi pulau hentian resah.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

marahnya lekas selekas kilat,

suamnya pasti bak embun pagi,

sekumit sabar rencah talian,

ikhlas teras peyambung senyuman.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

ringannya pundak alasan saja,

dalam jiwa badai gelora,

peranda hati tuju yang Esa,

hanya Tuhan tempat gantungannya.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

 lakunya cepat mengundang duka,

diamnya pantas mengundang lega,

katanya racun mengundang lara,

senyumnya tajam dihiris sinis.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat,

menghisap nira bagai tak ingat,

adanya dia mengundang hemat,

bukan berkira bukan mengata,

sedarkan dia hilang sengketa.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat, 

senangkan insan amalan harian,

hulurkan tangan ringankan beban,

 tak kira masa tak kira waktu,

hilang seminggu terasa rindu.

Aku terkenang seorang sahabat, 

mencurah ilmu tiada ingat,

berhabis keringat kering kudrat,

asalkan sampai hajat amanat,

tuntut akhirat itulah matlamat.

Disini tanahnya banyak berbakti,
disini buminya banyak mengisi, 
Melentur diri, meluhur nurani, 
mengajar erti hidup dan memberi
Bersama mereka mengenal Illahi.

Aku terkenang akan diriku,

keliling diri ramai berdiri,

harus diambil baiknya jati,

sompeknya cengal ditinggal tepi,

kerna manusia sempurna tiada,

Elokkah aku cukupkah aku,

dimata Pencipta dimata hamba,

moga Allah ampunkan dosa,

andaiku pergi adakah yang sudi,

menyiram pusara menghantar doa,

23/11/13

Yang ikhlas,

Sahabatmu

Sayangku

Aku lihat ia membunuh,

membunuh bait bait kata,

menghilang sentuhan jiwa menghapus bicara,

menjurang insan sesama mereka.

aku lihat ia menjerut,

menjerut perlahan lahan,

setiap amalan suruhan tuhan,,

melayang naluri terbang kejauhan.

aku lihat ia mengheret ,

membawa lengah dalam perintah,

melari hati dari Illahi..

kabur di litup debuan palsu

aku lihat aku pejam aku hadam,

payah merasa parah membara,

cangkir kasih buat saudara,

jangan terbuang dilarut masa..

6/11/13

tulus hatiku, 

SAHABATmu

Awesome people, beautiful heart..

Salam,,
Toucing sungguh when the first time this video appeared on my timeline in facebook,,
hopefully me and all of you out there , have the 'AZAM' to at least do like those people did.. anywhere, anytime,,as a Muslim, this kind of video should become viral more often rather than those cursing, condemning , and immoral one..

haa.. that nice and beautiful feeling when you actually helped an old lady with her stuffs climbing stairs, holding this one old pakcik's arm while crossing the road, .. from the video, i think all of those cuts are from Russia..  haa.. indahnya lagi berganda2 kalau yg buat semua tu seorang muslim,, kan3.. heee...
hayati tayangan perdana ni dan amik lah ibrah apa2 yang patut k...!!  maksud tajuk dalam russian Мир не без добрых людей this world we live in, is not without good people..secara simple nya,, dunia ni x de la sume nye orang jahat.. haa.. gitu..



p/s : oleh kerana tulisan diri ni kurang dapat menyentuh hati2 dan terasa kurang 'ruhi' nya , ce try panjangkan sikit lagi bacaan ke  latest post dari Ustaz Pahrol ...sangat2 best.." buat baik selama-lamanya.." =)
have a good day semua.. peperiksaan hujung tahun final exam dalam masa 2 minggu lagi mula, mohon doanya agar diermudahkan semua..aminn..

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Aku dan hari ini - Tatkala aku sendiri..

Eiffel tower, Paris

Aku dan Hari ini..


Lama sudah aku berpaling,
angkuh dalam langkah,

menongkah arus suci adDin,
asyik dalam buaian jahiliyah.

Taburan nikmat yang kuabaikan,
kelopak iman yang kusiakan,
gugur layu tiada bersemai,
hilang subur dalam harumnya.

Aku rindukan waktu itu,
kalbu jernih cerminan iman,
linang titis titis air mata,
tunduk memanjat doa suci.

Serahku padaMu Pemilik Hati,
menghangat kembali cinta ini,
mengisi gersang kendi sanubari,
yang meruntun cintaMu ya Robbi..



Yang demikian itu disebabkan karena sesungguhnya mereka mencintai kehidupan di dunia lebih dari akhirat, dan bahwasanya Allah tiada memberi petunjuk kepada kaum yang kafir. (16:107)

p/s : Alhamdulillah.. syukur kepadaNya, kerna walau serba dalam tak mengena,, masih ada Dia tempat untuk kusandar..

# in rememberance of Naqbah Day (15/5/1948)
#Happy Teacher's Day buat guru guru tersayang, jasa kalian tidak terbilang... (16 May)


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Refleksi Kembara Ini..

Aku melihat, 
mereka sangat kuat,
membulat hati berpaut syariat,
walau digenggam terasa berat,
namun tiada jatuh luntur semangat,

Aku melihat,
ukhuwah mereka pamerkan,
ikatan persaudaraan tanpa garisan,
menghangat kasih dengan senyuman,
kuntuman bunga tarbiyah Al-Quran,

Aku melihat,
mereka menghidupkan Islam,
dalam suasana yang telah kelam,
atas debu nan suram,
tinggalan khalifah semalam.

Aku melihat,
dan terus melihat,
mencelik mata membuka jiwa,
menjadi insan setabah mereka,
menjadi ihsan seihsan mereka,
buat menifestasiku mengejar sorga..

Sentuhan Alhambra (jan/2013)

from kobe..

p/s : aku bersyukur kerna dipertemukan dengan mereka.. alhamdulillah...

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be happy..

salam..

somehow i find this video quite interesting.. be happy with the things that we do and be grateful for that every single thing that happened in our life journey so far were the best from Him rite?




post-infectio us xm.. alhamdulillah everything went well i guess, soalan Plague, the 'Black Death' of Europe in the middle age, revise pulak the day before that sambil makan roti sambil2 isi masa tgk dokumentari plague ni kat youtube,, memang menyelerakan sungguh.. (* mohon jangan ditiru aksi melampau ni ).. and next week gonna sit for the MCQ questions.. 400-600 questions should be revised.. at least theres material kan ? bersyukur2..=)

bersyukur kerna lebih 23 tahun berpijak diatas bumi dalam bingkai kehidupan ini... mudahan Allah jadikan ak hambaNya yg soleh... aminn..
teringat kata2 seorang sahabat ni di facebook which i find soooo much true ..

kita dipandang baik, bukan kerna kita ni baik, tp sebab Allah tutup aib kita..
kalau tak, hmmmmph!

-HA-

aku x mampu mengubah persepsi orang pada diri ini, yg baik itu aku percaya kerana aibnya Dia tutupi, dan yg terlihat buruk itu sungguh atas khilaf diri.. teguran lembut dari Illahi buat memperbaiki hati... kerana aku juga manusia.. seperti kamu dan mereka...

p/s : has been reading for quite some times the things that happened in Lahad Datu, Sabah,, moga Allah mudahkan urusan juga selamatkan mereka di sana..

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Ronaldo joined 'Save Palestine' campaign.. ^^

People around the world trying their hardest for Palestine, and our contributions ? Its no more matter only for Muslim,, its about the oppressor and the one being oppressed...  Ask our heart.. our little so called 'human' heart..If theres even a little bit of empathy left within it..
I found a poem shared by an American lady in her blog.. (click here) beautiful and touching  story of a piece of land snatched away by strangers..

A jail without a roof, occupied with a stubborn flags that refuses to lies down.. 

Save Gaza.. T-T

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Tangisan Palestin dan Maal Hijrah 1434..

Salam,

sibuk dan meriah aku lihat di dada dada facebook dengan ucapan maal hijrah.. tidak kurang juga dengan gambar2 dari sambutan raye Deepavali dari saudara2 hindu di serata dunia,, dalam sedar atau tidak, malam ini Gaza menangis, "Operation Pillar of Defence" lancaran regime Zionis terlalu pilu buat diri,,sedar atau tidak, dia sedang menangis..-_-

Rintihku buat Palestin

Dalam tawa diri kulupakanmu,

 kemarahan suam yang selalu menghilang,

 sedang kau berjuang menggenggam tanah,

 membela nama dan mengagkat sisa,

maruah ad-Dean yang dicalar diluka..

kuatnya sang kalian ,

kalian yang sedang dilanda musibah,

kalian yang sedang diuji direbah,

Kalian yang gagah meredah,

kalian yang berjuang penuh tabah,

anak perempuanmu dibunuh,

anak lelakimu dipenjara,

isterimu ditembak suamimu disiksa,

bumimu ditumpah titisan darah,

tanahmu dibasah pekatan merah,

moga Allah hapuskan dosa,

menganugerah syahidnya jiwa..

lemahnya si Aku,

aku yang hanya mampu berharap,

aku yang hanya mampu menghiba..

aku yang hanya mampu meratap,

aku yang hanya mampu berdoa,

Ya Allah,

kumohon diKau sucikan hati,

utk terus kurasa bersama mereka,

sama merasa,sama menjiwa,

perit dan pedih setiap luka,

Ya Allah,

kupohon jangan Kau lalikan naluri,

dari terus membenci zionis Israeli,

moga laknatMu bersama mereka,

agar bumi isra' nya nabi terjaga,

agar bumi mikraj nya nabi terbela...

aminn Ya Robb..

1 Muharram 1434 /15 Nov 2012

p/s terhenti lamunan pabila dihujani segala berita tentang serangan rejim Zionis yg sekali lagi dilakukan pada Awal Muharram 1434h, selepas melakukannya 4 tahun lalu juga pada awal Muharram 1430h.. moga Allah lindungi mereka .. aminn..

Ya Allah, jangan kau 'anesthesia' kan hati-hati saudara-saudaraku dari menjiwai penderitaan Gaza bumi cinta...aminn 

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down seketika..

Andai kita tidak bisa membahagiakan, jangan pula terus menerus menyakitkan..

live simple and don't be a slave to your emotions.

"Dan janganlah kamu (merasa) lemah, dan jangan (pula) bersedih hati, sebab kamu paling tinggi (darajatnya) jika kamu beriman.' (3:139)

agak down seketika sambil cari peluang untuk bangkit.. 
final psychiatry esok.. 

bismillah.. moga dipermudahkan.. aminn...

p/s : just love the look in that pakcik's eyes.. full of honesty and simplicity.. living such a humble yet virtuous life..inshaAllah...

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life ada up and down nya..

kadang2 x faham dengan orang yg sangat2 mementingkan diri,, u can have mine, but i cant even touch yours ? u can take everything from me, but when it comes to you, everything must be according to what u want and how u want them to be,, it doesnt make sense at all la when we actually live in the so called 'kehidupan bermasyarakat' ni,, well, i guess Allah wanna tell me to improve 'patience' /sabar/ redha/ tabah dalam hati kecil ni..ya Allah permudahkanlah urusan,,

haa, agak emo disitu kan,, well, im not sure why, but im being kind of a bit too sensitive lately, may it be bcoz of hidup yg makin mencabar ni ke, cuaca ke, temperature mungkin, but haha,, thats its just too hard for me,,sabar syahir.. today marked the 4th day of my fever beaver.. the whole pediatrics lecture ter soksek soksek,, agaknye those russians sebelah pon naik geli kut,, amende lerr mamat ni kan,,Kesihatan~~ nikmat yang kadangkala aku lupekan sampai lerr suatu masa Allah uji kita melalui jalan ini. “Nah kau wahai hambaKu! Aku rindu rintihanmu! Ayuh, merintihlah pada-Ku”. Mungkin tu yg Allah nak sampaikan pada ak..

alhamdulillah, today is my 16th day doing this strict life regime , people asked me what is the meaning of those thing since i counted every single day and updated them to my twitter, haa, anyway inshaAllah will do my very best till day30-end..thank you Ma for keeping me doing my annual full blood test, so that i can know the current condition my amad caer,, lot of love for ma,,

 yesterday kak JR called, asking hows everything, from my operations to fadzli's preparation for SPM which will take place in about 11 days lagi,,  inshaALlah kalau tiada aral melintang, boleh la visit kakJr di Paris winter holiday nnti.. harap x de masalah,, dengarnye S/U tok ambassador ke france ni, die nak masakkan sambal petai udang sambal udang petai  nnti, haha,,tah mane petai datang ke paris ak pun x tau,, 
 told ma n abah about the plan, umm, slamat mendapat restu ..hee,, since they knew kakJR too sejak the last 3 years,, 

terfikir nak angkat 100mmf2.8 or 135mmf2 or 17-40mmf4 and 430exii,,, tapi rase sayang plak nak buang dwet ke situ,, lambat2 nnti surut la die,, keinginan manusie,, mane pernah puas,, astaghfirullah...for now tumpukan psychiatric exam dulu, 2 minggu lagi.. mohon doakan ahmad syahir di tabahkan hati di mudahkan urusan...aminn...

not all things can be seen by our eyes, so do human my friend..^^ 

“IA tahu segala yang di langit dan di bumi. IA tahu segala yang kamu sembunyikan, dan segala yang kamu nyatakan. ALLAH tahu benar isi hati sanubari”.  (64 : 4)

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” Betapa Beruntungnya Kami “

” Betapa Beruntungnya Kami “ (Ya HanaNa)

Telah muncul agama yang didukung,
Telah muncul agama yang didukung dengan munculnya sang Nabi Ahmad,
Betapa beruntungnya kami dengan Muhammad (Saw),
itulah anugerah dari Allah.

Betapa beruntungnya kami,

Diistimewakan dengan as-Sab’ul Matsany (al-Fatihah),
penghimpun rahasia setiap makna, tak ada yang senilai dengannya,
dan Allah mewahyukannya kepadanya (Muhammad SAW),

Betapa beruntungnya kami,

Ketika di Makkah bulan tampak terbelah deminya (Muhammad SAW),
lalu kabilah Mudhar (kabilah Muhammad SAW) menjdai dibanggakan di atas seluruh manusia.

Betapa beruntungnya kami,

Beliau adalah manusia yang terbaik ciptaanNya, dan teragung akhlaknya,
Semua mengelu-elukannya di barat dan di timur.
Segala puji bagi Allah,

Betapa beruntungnya kami,

Bershalawatlah kepada sebaik-baik manusia, yang terpilih,

Sang bulan purnama,
Bershalawatlah dan sampaikan salam kepadanya,
kelak ia akan memberi syafaat kita di hari kebangkitan.

Betapa beruntungnya kami..


p/s : selalu dengar dalam kereta abah , tapi jarang sekali menghayati maknanya,, indah pada tiap2 baitnya.. moga syafaatnya milik kita bersama,, aminn.. ya Robb.. 

lama sungguh x update di laman curhat ni ,, andai diizin tuhan, inshaAllah,,  paeriksa infectious 'mid sem' selasa,, banyak sungguh binatang2 x ternampak di mata, a.k.a makhluk halus yg perlu di pelajari dan di hafal,, do pray for me,, aminn..^^

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