life ada up and down nya..

kadang2 x faham dengan orang yg sangat2 mementingkan diri,, u can have mine, but i cant even touch yours ? u can take everything from me, but when it comes to you, everything must be according to what u want and how u want them to be,, it doesnt make sense at all la when we actually live in the so called 'kehidupan bermasyarakat' ni,, well, i guess Allah wanna tell me to improve 'patience' /sabar/ redha/ tabah dalam hati kecil ni..ya Allah permudahkanlah urusan,,

haa, agak emo disitu kan,, well, im not sure why, but im being kind of a bit too sensitive lately, may it be bcoz of hidup yg makin mencabar ni ke, cuaca ke, temperature mungkin, but haha,, thats its just too hard for me,,sabar syahir.. today marked the 4th day of my fever beaver.. the whole pediatrics lecture ter soksek soksek,, agaknye those russians sebelah pon naik geli kut,, amende lerr mamat ni kan,,Kesihatan~~ nikmat yang kadangkala aku lupekan sampai lerr suatu masa Allah uji kita melalui jalan ini. “Nah kau wahai hambaKu! Aku rindu rintihanmu! Ayuh, merintihlah pada-Ku”. Mungkin tu yg Allah nak sampaikan pada ak..

alhamdulillah, today is my 16th day doing this strict life regime , people asked me what is the meaning of those thing since i counted every single day and updated them to my twitter, haa, anyway inshaAllah will do my very best till day30-end..thank you Ma for keeping me doing my annual full blood test, so that i can know the current condition my amad caer,, lot of love for ma,,

 yesterday kak JR called, asking hows everything, from my operations to fadzli's preparation for SPM which will take place in about 11 days lagi,,  inshaALlah kalau tiada aral melintang, boleh la visit kakJr di Paris winter holiday nnti.. harap x de masalah,, dengarnye S/U tok ambassador ke france ni, die nak masakkan sambal petai udang sambal udang petai  nnti, haha,,tah mane petai datang ke paris ak pun x tau,, 
 told ma n abah about the plan, umm, slamat mendapat restu ..hee,, since they knew kakJR too sejak the last 3 years,, 

terfikir nak angkat 100mmf2.8 or 135mmf2 or 17-40mmf4 and 430exii,,, tapi rase sayang plak nak buang dwet ke situ,, lambat2 nnti surut la die,, keinginan manusie,, mane pernah puas,, astaghfirullah...for now tumpukan psychiatric exam dulu, 2 minggu lagi.. mohon doakan ahmad syahir di tabahkan hati di mudahkan urusan...aminn...

not all things can be seen by our eyes, so do human my friend..^^ 

“IA tahu segala yang di langit dan di bumi. IA tahu segala yang kamu sembunyikan, dan segala yang kamu nyatakan. ALLAH tahu benar isi hati sanubari”.  (64 : 4)

pen off..