MUNAJAT RINDU

Pernah Kau berkata
Susunilah langkahmu pada Ku
Nantinya kaukan ku kejari
maka tersungkurlah aku ada satu kembara
kerana ku mengerti
Di hujungnya kau sedang menanti

Jua selalu Kau berkata
Hayatilah perutusan-perutusan
agar nanti,
Rindumukan sentiasa bergelodak
dan cinta kita mula mencari akarnya

Benarlah,
Pada coretan-Mu tersirap
bilah-bilah ketenangan
Yang ku kutip dicelah kepayahan
Namun tatkala keresahan dunia
mula membaluti
Kau hadiahkan kucupan syahdu
Melalui surat-suratMu
Langsung tenggelamlah aku
di lautan rindu
KataMu lagi,
Sujudlah padaKu
lalu ku tafakur pada noda seruMu
Lemas pada asyiknya menagih cinta

BisikMu jua
NamaMu ulangilah…ulangilah
Luahkan ungkapan cinta rinduMu
Walau gelita malam terus membungkus
Agar pantas,
SeruanMu ku sambut

Lalu jadiklah aku penyair setia
Mengarap puisi cinta
dan epilog cinta
Rindu menjadi satu
dan nama Mu ku kalung
saban waktu.

semoga terus menghayati Ramadhan..

ingatan tulus ikhlas tidak lain tidak bukan
utk hati yg paling dekat dengan mulut yg berbicara dan jari yg menaip ini..
dan saudara2ku yg lain jua..

never a weekend anymore

first class biochem..
hari sabtu..
9.00 am to 12.30 pm
located just beside d moscow zoo park..
bebetol sebelah bangunan faculty gue..
hoho..
lecturerku perempuan..
50s gitu kot..
lec pade housemate aku dari India..sekarang die dah 6th year..
senior2 pon de cite gak..
heard a lot bout her..
according to them..
shes 1 of d toughest lecturer for biochem..
da lerr subjek tu mmg asal kejadiannye pon da susa..
but 1 thing is that u'll learn la..
umm..
rase takut2 tu mmg ade..
but tried to be normal dlm kelas..
1 thing is,,
die kasik keje umah byk gile..
seriously byk..
x leh main2 byk sgt arr lepas nih..
say no to give up..
btw..
sape kate study kat russia senang?
pukul baru tau..

n nak cakap selamat berbuka puasa pade warga rumah
no 31 undan 12 tmn perling 81200 jb johor..
semalam makan byk gile orh..
so jgn lerr riso org kat sini x makan ke pe yerr..
=D..
till then..

pen off..

i'm back

finally got my internet..
haish..
surely,, i was a hard 1st week,,
like d other moscow student too..
u'll know when u're here..
n rite now..
with my new roomates, Ayie,,

we were both really in love with Cyberjaya Medical School...
haish..
byk faedah woo di sana,,
but its ok lah..
bersyukur dengan apa yg ada.,
n try ur very best yerr syahir..
go3..
btw wanna wish a very good luck to Mur,,
nxt week gonna be ur UPSR lerr ,,
jgn men2 sgt @ over confident yerr..
waiting for d chance to go n skype with fam ASAP..
n back to business now..
come on2..
=D..
wish me luck..
salam

sorry ma surat ni x de setem...hehe

currently dekat abu dhabi..
9 hours transit yg surely amat memenatkan n mmbosankan..
act ponx tau nak wat ape dlm tempoh mase nih..
huhu..
tu yg sempat on9.. facebook, blog n beberape lg..
br pukul 1 am..
our flight gonna be at 9 am..
fuh..sekarang org2 kat ruma tgh bersahur..
sorry arr mur n ali n korang2 sume yg lain..
start dari hari ni x leh kejut korang dah..
haha..
sentimental la plak...=)..
dont worry..
yg kat sini pon sedih2 n rindu2 gak..
but papepon,, everything gonna be just fine..
aminn..
harap2 la..
=)..
n here..
nak cakap terime kasih sgt3333 pade ma n abah, atok lah n for everything pon..
sorry lerr ye ..coz cam x byk mmbantu time dok umah..
hihi... mur with ur UPSR,, good luck n doa dari sini..insyaallah baik2 aje result nnti..
cik nurul with awak punye SPM,, huhu.. buat bebetol,, n doa2 jugak..usaha je x cukup..
ali pon same..kene study kuat2 skit..n kurangkn a bit dota..=).. baru bole belanja lebih lepas nih..hehe
n fuad.. ape aku leh cakap ek..haha.. selamat lerr menjawab A2 ko nih..
mane lerr tahu,, tahun depan kitorg melawat ko kat aussie plak..
mura je..
air asia kan ade..
=D..
huhu..
papepon,, really gonna miss home .hak3..
ok3...dah3...
back to real world..
doa2kn saye di sini yerr..harap2 baik2 aje sumenyerr..
amin..
n dapt balik lg tahun depan ngn happy nyer..
ade umur kite jumpe lagi..
=)..
salam..

syahir..

no more..

i'll be in moscow only d day after tomorrow..
saba2 ek korang.. jumpe nnti kat sane..
btw, just finished with my luggage..30 kg is quite a lot i think..
huhu,. my nenek belikan some kuih raye, serunding n even serbun jintan manis..=)..
really need to learn a lot how to use them b4 flying back..
hopefully , next summer, i'll be definitely a better person..
lahiriah or rohaniah?
i'll say both..insyaallah..
to syahir, as a 2nd year medical studnt..
try to double ur effort,
double ur revison,
double ur concerntration in class..
double ur solat n puase sunat..
double for food??nonono..
d first day i went back here..
i lost almost 16 kg .. gilekan?? (sekampit beras tu)...
n today, 2 days b4 going back,i gained 8 kg back..
"caer2...boleh x belanje ni?"
kalau boleh je,,,
"..jom mcflurry.. jom burger.. jom mcD.. jom aiskrim.. blaa.bla..bla..."
mmg sihat lerr aku.hihi.alhamdulillah..
jaohkan dr sakit2..
amin..
just rasa happy sgt dpt balik ruma..
hush..
ok2..
although i'm surely gonna miss everything i did here..
driving, tennis, kfc, pizza hut yg sedap, dan byk3 lg lain..
lepas nih.. kite akan travel pergi kelas by bus,
naik train plak..
n jalan kaki utk sampaikan kelas..
dlm 1 1/2 hours nak sampaikn kelas..
denga macam jaokan??
mmg jao pon actually..
mungkin satu jalan, Allah nak suro saye belaja jadik lagi bersyukur dengan apa yg pernah saya ada,but x pernah mensyukurinye di msia..
macam da panjang sgt je nih..
apa2pun, just nak mengingatkan diri ni,
supaya kembali lerr ke dunia yg nyata balik,,
i hope that everything gonna be just fine in this coming year..
jumpe lagi nnti..
not sure if this is my last post in msia b4 flying bacak to moscow,
but if it really is, just nak pesan pade diri n saudara2 yg lain, sama2 kite berdoa supaye apa2pun yg kite buat,
matlamatnye hanya akan ke yang satu..
Lillah hi Taala...
aminn...

pen off..
syahir..

p/s : hari ni saye officially menjadik pemandu yg layak memandu=)..
pak cik jpj yg baik..
time kasih sebab lepaskan pekse utk lesen memandu saye..
=D.bole tido sambil tersenyum lg malam nih..
hihi

tunduk ke bumi..

umm,
macam byk je bende yg berlaku sampai aku rase cam malas nak post sume..
umm, some of my bestfrens off to indonesia, USA n some other place dalam 2 minggu nih..
my fren's sis died..H1N1..(alfatihah)..
last 3 days, ini ruma, pokol 3 , itu pencuri masuk,
we all sume kat tingkat atas, die cume bermain2 kat tingkat bawah je..
cash, laptop, phone sume kene ..selamat bersemadi sume..
luckily phone, wallet, n laptop terselamat sebb aku bawak lap top masuk tido sekali kat atas dat night.. but saye lupe pasal satu beg kertas putih..
ade phone lama,flight ticket, USD, roubles, passport, student card, metro card,visa sume2 tu kat bawah,,
cam syukur gile pencurik tu x nampak..
ataupon die belas kesian kat aku sampai x sanggup nak amik bende2 tu, aku pon x tau la..
but alhamdulillah mine was ok sume..
just dat my untie almost 8k, nenek da nak kat 2k,
beg sume koyak, n from ape yg aku perasan, my grandma je yg cam abit shock.
mereke tabah.. kene sume tu, terus wat solat sunat..umm..dan x nangis..
pagi tu gi la balai wat report, tgh2 buat, ade satu untie rambut kuning dengan baju ketat wat report gak sebelah aku..
"make sure this person die"
sambil hempas tah hape bende tah kat depan inspector tu..
dan yg aku paling riso yelah konci kete aku ilang...
bukan riso skit2 tapi gile3 nye riso..
haish..
tah lerr..
harap2 ok2 je..
aminn..
btw lagi 5 hari da nak balik..
lagi 3 hari da nak pekse JPJ ,
n lagi 1 hari nak pose..
harap2 ramadhan kali nih lebih lagi mendidik diri..
amin..
kusentiaseharapdiriinitabah..
aminn..sekali lg..

Penggelak sadis..
(kadang2 aku fikir ade juga benarnye nama ini)

pen off..

ever think bout it??

A man reached 70 years of age and was affected by a disease which made him unable to urinate. The doctors told him that he needs an operation to cure the disease. He agreed to do the operation as the problem was giving him severe pain for days. When the operation was completed the doctor gave him a bill which covered all the costs. After looking at the bill, the man started crying. Upon seeing this, the doctor said, "If the cost is too high then we could make some other arrangements for you." The old man replied, "I am not crying because of the money but I am crying because Allah (SWT) let me urinate for 70 years and HE never sent me a bill!" SubhanAllah!..

brochure MRI 07...

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

dedicated to satu kawan saye yg really fighting hard now..
really3 hard..
sy sgt menyanjungi beliau..
perlu saye letakkan name?
mungkin tidak..
but those lines ,each word, x tertinggal satu pon really untuk ko yerr..
dan saye harap die terus tabah n happy selalu..(doa utk diri sendirik jugak..)
aja2...
amin..

words from my late untie..

i went to my nanny's place last week,
my cousin drove his bm..
thankz to shahril..
on the way to Pontian,
i saw a card,
it was from my late untie who passed away 10 years ago,
gave that card to aril,
a simple bright purple card,
Something is written there..

When things go wrong,
as they sometimes will,
when the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
when the funds are low,
and the debts are high,
and you want to smile,
but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you downa bit,
rest if you must,
but dont you quit..

Life is strange with its twists and turns,
as everyone of us sometimes learns,
and many failure turns about,
when he might have won had he stuck it out..
dont give up though the pace seems slow,
you may succeed with another blow...

Succeed is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint of clouds of doubt,
and you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when youre hardest hit.
it's when things seem worse,,
that you must not quit...

took me quite some time to really think bout those lines..
umm,,
понял...

alfatihah to-
Allayarhamah Fatimah Naim Binti Mohd Supa'at..

up n down..

tadi igtkan dah kandas serta merta dah..
sebab tertibe je instructor tu suro balik..
bile smapai office,,
die kasik kertas, markah 93..
haha..
tunggu jpj punye pekse plak..

bile usha2 balik kertas markah tu,
anda tidak:

• memandang ke cermin setiap 10-15 saat (mmg sume pemandu malaysia tgk cermin sisi die setiap 10 saat ke klu gi jalan2)
• usha blindspot tepi anda (aku jeling ke kanan cam ne die nak nampak,, mengong)
  
• tidak kasik tanda yg secukupnye ketika membelok..(yg nih mmg sengal sebab fosho tadi aku terlupa kasik signal tima nak belok..haha)

act hari ni pon x segembira yg di gambarkan..
ibu pada seorang teman aku kembali ke Rahmatullah,,seorg yg sgt3 baik pade aku ..
seorng pendakwah yg aku segani jugak kembali kepada yg Esa., Allayarham Ust. Asri...
agak terase pemergiannye,
aku tetap harap diri ini tabah..
amin.,..
semoga Allah tempatkan mereka semua di tmpat yg diredhai..

kekasih baru saye..=D..

seriously lega dapat carik another 1..
not this colour,, a red wine one..
at least x de lerr sunyi sgt nnti on the way 1 1/2 hours travel gi kelas hari2..
sebab ade org nak temankan dlm train..
wahai w902, hopefully jangka hayat kamoo panjang skit dari k850i b4 dis k.. jgn arr setahun je..durh...
sekarang leh tido sambil senyum..
alhamdulillah...
=)..

pen off...

satu malam di teratak lama...(editted dgn byk sgt gamba)

this special post saye tulis watu 1.28 mlm, 10-8-2009 live dari UTp..=).macam perantau tulis pasal pengembaraan die..
haha..just wanna let pengalaman nih fresh dlm ingatan saye buat sesuatu jangka waktu yg lebih lame dengan adenye [post nih..
the whole day aku travel ,penat gak act..
met nabil dekat pudu waktu tengah hari, on d way to this beloved place, the place where i learned d true life sebagai mahasiswa kot..(bunyik cam nerd je..) reached here at 4, ijat amik dengan kete best nyer.. gi makan chicken chop yg sedap suggested by nabil , otw nak balik, baru perasan kete ijat pancit, x pasal2 dapat kerje khusus tuka tayar kerete die,, but it was fun,, huhu.. i met most of my old frenz here.. those i miss a lot lately.. d pic i'll upload later yer.. at 10 , ijat, ah chong/arif, n me, heading to Salam rest. nak tgk bola.. manchester utd vs chelsea.. huhu.. l. haha.. there , i met even more people,, satu kedai mamak yg penuh dengan manusie,, tetibe nampak damak, aso, bulat, faris, femau, n d others..damak kate nasi goreng ayam madu die sedap..try je..patut damak makin 'sehat kat sini..haha
anne Salam kasik makan sedap..

'luckily cech save 2 penalty, from giggs n evra respectively, sampai sakit2 ketak aku jerit..sian ijat..haha,, masuk UTP n tido bilik ijat malm nih... best sgt dpt sembang byk2 ngn semua.. sebab tiket malam da abis, so terpakse tido lg semalam kat sini=),, ijat n nabil nak anta ke station.. so monday, i got d whole day kat utp,
i joined their lecture session..haha..cam nak tido rasenye..
gile kepale blaja pasal batu2 diorg nih..haha..but cam best je dpt masuk lecture dak2 petroleum engi. lagi..nostalgia2..=)



wawa, me acong'arif n rain/acap


malam last, kami kua makan same2..

ijat, anis, me n nabil..kami geng ber4 dulu..tapi sekrang.. tinggal saye dan nabil saje..ijat n anis dah taken..=P...semoge happy selaloo..=)


sian akak tu nak amik order ..

one of my bestfren kat UTP dulu..izzat fauzi..

sasaer n samura x de lerr jao sgt beza..cme h8boy samura nsem skit je dr h8boy saser nih..=P...haha...men2 je jat...jgn terase..=)



=) thankz to d people here.. seems like byk sgt bende2 yg dah berubah,, masing2 makin matang, hopefully seiring dengan kematangan usia, kematangan lahiriah dan batiniah pon turut sama terpimpin,, suasana kat sini, sgt3 lerr buat aku makin rase rindu dengan life yg aku penah ade kat sini dulu.. they seems like working hard too.. ramai yg makin kuat study..hihi..maybe theres somethiong that i can get from my visit kali nih... sama2 usaha agar dapat apa2 yg dicita2kn..walau di atas tanah yg berbeza, tapi masih bawah satu langit yg same..=).. to ijat, nabil, gen, izul, pian, aiman, ajin, intan, acap, munir, afiq hana, azrul wawa, haikal, bob, ahChong, liu, zul,lim, damak, aso, bulat, faris, n banyak3 lagi yg lain..thankz sgt3.. semoga persahabatan ini kekal hingga ke nafaz terakhir dlm iman.... aminn.. pen off... p/s: rase cam nak tido,, but cam rugi la plak klu tido awal2..haha..so kami pon buat lerr keje yg bukan2..=)
anis...happygolucky je selalu..
nabilmacho...=X

=)

ijatnsem..(die kate la..)

thankz to ijat nye camera baru.. so byk gamba die amik..=)
jumpe lg korang..
salam...

jalan2 carik kawan

maybe this week up to monday, keje saye pusing2 msia..
semalam was fun.. follow my mum dengan student nyer ke UM,
went to their anatomy museum, best...
jumpe ngn mizi, hitler ellia, murshidah, sacin n Jim...
lepas jummat, jalan2 ke Mid plak..



mmg dah suruh dah zac ngn buntal datang..
and i met buntal punye budak kolej gak, Ada namenye..
pastu went back...since im not very good dlm KL, thankz to my xclassmate, zac yg antakan..
haha..
overall, it was really really fun day..
saye sgt gumbire jugak...
maybe ahad hingga isnin di UTP b4 balik ke JB utk siapkan lesen lagi 2 jam n perikse ari khamis nih...

pen off...
=)

pergi lagi..

hari ini,
kulihat air mata seorang ayah,
mengalir sepi mengiringi pemergian anaknya,
air mata seorang ibu,
bercucuran lembut cuba meredhai semua..
2 tahun lebih muda dari diri usianya,
baru minggu lepas bersemuka dengannya dikedai depan,
tapi telahpun diseru Illahi,
abah x dpt datng sebb masih di KL,
jadi aku wakilkan beliau,
waktu talkin dibaca, terlintas sudah cukupkah apa yg ada utk dijadikn bekal kalau2 esok lusa giliran diri..
wallahualam,

"Syahir, kamu jagalah diri baik2 ya, kamu ambillah pengajaran dan iktibar dari semua yg berlaku ni"
tatkala aku bersalam mengucap takziah pada bapanya,

terdiam aku sebelum dapat menyusun kata semula,
tabah benar bapanye,
guru math aku swaktu darjah 3 merangkap guru setiausaha pengawas semenjak darjah 4..
semoga roh anakanda sulungnya, almarhum Mohd Syakir bin Abd Syukur bersemadi dengan tenang dlm limpah rahmat yg Esa...
amin,,
al-Fatihah..

pen off..

phone ape yg saye patut beli??

salam,,
semalaman memikirkan,,
dlm byk2 jenis phone dlm dunie nih,,
phone ape yg patut saye beli...
durh..
anyone out there can recommend any model??
coz saye really2 lerr x tau..
sob3..
haha..
x kisa la nokia ke sony ericsson ke..
umm,,
terime kasih,.
=)
hihi..

phone ape yg saye patut beli??

conflict of d mind..

something dat i dont have d strength to talk out loud, but keep on torturing my mind

i really hate when people start judging n blaming d others due to their previous mistakes..
i really hate when people cant forgive others..
i really hate when people only looked only at 1 side n stereotyping d others...
i didnt hate d people,(i guess) but d fact that those things happened...
durh..

why keep on blaming dat person?? what if he had already learned from his mistakes n is trying hard himself not to repeat his mistakes ever again.. ape jadik kalau die dah insaf? sedangkan d other person keep on blaming n terus menghukum die sebab satu kesilapan lampau yg die lakukan.. is this what u used to call keadilan?? adil utk si pesalah?? itu yg layak die terime??
what is this??every people make mistakes ok.. nobody is perfect.. die nih dulu banduan, lepas kua jail, alim konon..tu gi bersihkan masjid nak tebang tabung masjid la tu... haish....

is it that hard to forgive d others?? U need to pay 4 it is it huh???
why u must keep dat person feelin guilty by keep on shutting ur mouth n says nothing while dat person x cam berbuih plak mulut..that hard meh to say its ok, im forgiving u..nothing la..its really ok.. is it that hard?? as if theres tonnes of gold in ur mouth huh?nape mesti nak buat die terus rase bersalah.. is it because of ur ego? ur pride is really dat high?? pride-less if u do those things?? x kan..x bermaruah sebab maafkan seseorang?? haha..jgn buat aku gelak la ok..

and why u must do stereotyping as if those people really as bad as d 1 ure camparing with..bapak borek anak rintik is it?? kalau bapak penagih, anak mesti penagih ke??? x kan??? so what is d problem?? rambut panjang je budak jahat, jalan kua kaki ayam je org miskin, kelua ngn kawan je budak lepak,
people are really not d same.. they must have their own reason to do something..even if u ask mat rempit, doing their race for what?? they will say 4 fun...c!! there's still a reason kan.??
unless that person is really stupid and giving d aswer like saje2 or wtv i dont care lah..
not talking bout d wrong act but more into tentang sesetengah org yg selalu melabelkan org lain,pliz la jgn..tolongg arrr JANGAN!!!! durh..

hush..y am i writing this things? coz i really SICK of it..
what goes around comes around kan?
if we keep on blaming others, 1 day people might blame us even for something very3 small things..
if we refuse to forgive others den one day people migh not forgiving u..
if we keep on stereotyping d others, 1 day people might do just d same thing toward us,

astaghfirullahhalazim..

coz we r not perfectkan??..
we re nothing but a servant of Allah ..
insyaallah if we help each other,
khairu ummah can be achieved..
im not writing this to say that im good or anything..
we r just d same..
d servant who always make mistakes..
but its ok if we realize it n hope that we will become a better person for each coming days..
dedicated to me myself too..
coz even d writer is not good enough in handling hatred,
so better change ourself b4 thinking of chnging d others or even d society,
n for those who find those lines can give them something, then its urs..
terserah lah bagai mana kamu nk mentafsir segala isi2nya..
insyaallah...
hope everything gonna be baik2 aje n dlm limpahan barakah yg Esa..
bersihkan lah hati ini ya Allah..
aminn...
fiuh.............
=)


pen off..

tersudut mangu..

pabila dirimu inginkan sesuatu yg berseri cahyanye,
sesuatu yg dapat menerangi hidup depanmu disana kelak,
janganlah kau takabur kalau kau rasa kau telahpun menemuinya,
ingatlah bahawa nur itu adalah anugerah,
utk setiap manusia,
disudut hati itu tersimpan ia,
yaitu kiriman dan pemberian dari sang pencipta,
bagi sesiapa yg dikehendakinya,
tetaplah maju dan teruskan perjuangan,
mengejar kebahagian dunia akhiratmu!

Mungkinkah dapat kita cari cahaya itu di dalam kegelapan..
sesungguhnya aku cuba mencarinya..
dan masih terus mencari,
tetapi mengapa hati ini selalu berbolak balik,
jiwa ini sentiasa dihimpit pelbagai rasa..
pabila ingin berubah,
ada shaja yang datang menghalang..
sesungguhnya aku terima ia ,
sebagai dugaan yang tetap akan dihadap,
kerana percayalah,
sungguh janji yg maha Esa itu benar belaka.

bla.

feel so miserable !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hati sakit,
phone rosak, 2nd time dlm setengah tahun,(cam nak hempuk je dgn batu lesung sampai lumat tapi saye x buat)

contact2 sume ilang lagi..
kaki terseliuh,...
myself feel like energy-less sgt3,,, pain here n der too...
kalah winning E, 8-2, 7-1, 8-2 ngn dik aku,(cam nak hempas je controller ps2 atas lantai, tapi saye x buat jugak, kadang2 tu ade kot)
lesen x siap lagi....(cam nak baya je so dat leh terus dpt lesen, x yah gi kelas, tapi saye x buat jugak..)
+ starting to cough a lot, n a bit flu too..but i didnt have any contact with any infected person,
ape lagi lerr yg x cukup untuk melengkapkan hari yg x berape nak cemerlang time nih..
saba2..
durh..
gile3 punye teruk until feel like cam nak menjerit..
can i shout out really loud i here..
AAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
jerit dlm hati je la...
sound pollution is something that is not accepted anywhere including Msia..
durh...
gonna be ok soon..
amin..

pen off..

my hobby?

this holiday, i really take a full advantage of it..
huhu.. i mean this is d only chance to do what u cant while being in moscow,
things like enjoying d foods n hanging out with friends...
best2..haha..
people asking me what is my hobby..
when i was a child, my answer gonna be reading books, gardening, surfing d net..
but as i grow up, i think they r not..
i do love playing tennis since primary school..
=).all my siblings love it..

.fuad came back beberape hari lepas,,

so yesterday we all out to the court,,
playing this game..
huhu,,
fuad still good as b4 i guess..
haha...



aku tetibe terigt first time blaja main was a bit teruk.. not a bit, a nightmare kot..
in this 8 years i had 4 rackets..huhu.. d first 1 was a gift from my cousin,
d 2nd n 3rd was a wilson, n d latest was a babolat..
i used to be a really hot tampered player(dulu2 la..sekarang x kot..huhu..)
d 2nd racket broken after a game time tu,
but after about 6 months using it,
then came d day when i played so badly i felt like so frustrated n somehow,

i did make some recording bout the stroke petang semalam,,
after thinking about writing my hobby in my blog..
i think d video quality was a bit teruk kot..
sorry kalo x nampak bola tu ..hihi..


fuad with his style.currently in kolej mara seremban doing his A level .haha.. this year, hes d one who going to do selection for his college.. but die x main kot..nak pekse la katekan..


i always wanted to play in russia,,but somehow d court was really limited and gile xpensive cam hape sampai terhlang terus niat nak main kat sane..hihi..
kalau kat jb ni, d academy was just 200 m from my house and we just need to pay about rm 6 for 1 hour,,
in moscow, d sport complex where we all used to play futsal, theres 2 tennis court there..if im not mistaken, the rental was about 1500r per hour(almost rm 150)..thats a really big diff i guess..
=)..
so i think im going to enjoy playing this while ive d time untl d day saye balik ke moscow nnti..
yg boleh bawak bukannye d racket,, tapi....
kenangan main masa cuti..
thats all..
=)

iniler hobi saye ..
i really love it..
=)taken during end form 4..
doa semuge saye happy2 selalu..
btw semalam tido pukul 4.30 pagi..
tetibe best plak denga debate btwn ahmed diddad against a kristian priest..
entittled, ' is bible d words of God' n tonight i want to finbish up d 2nd part entittled 'is jesus a god'.a nice open debate n surely u not gonna regrat watching it..
=)..
salam...

pen off..

saye kua malam tadi dgn .....

semalam, mereka2 dari UIA n UTM ajak kua..
since aku x boleh bawak kerete jua jauh,
terpakse wuron amik aku kat perling mall,,
straight ke taman U n UTm amik inul ngn gabell n jayu..
dis time rambut dah pendek,
so x de lerr segan sgt nak kua ke tempat2 awam,
hehe
besa gak utm,,
haha..time nak balik, sampai x jumpe jalan kua,,
aku punye instruction main taram je, sampai wuron tuan driver sejati pon boleh termasuk against jalan sehala,,
slamat lerr x de kete,,
dlm 3 kali pusing2 tempat yg same,,
jumpe gak jalan kua..
after all,
it was fun yesterday,,
sitting n chatting together,
share d laugh n stories,
telling d jokes n kisah2 silam di sekolah,
=)..
i just cant help myself from being soo happy yesterday..
terime kasih kawan2...
insyaallah dapat chance nnti kite jumpe lagi..
=)..
salam
hehe

gabell n poosat
wuron n rempit
rempit n inul
gabell poosat n wuron lagi...
budak2 x betul bile malam mnjelme..
haha.. ape2 je..

.cam boleh buat cover album je gamba nih.

at least dapat jugak kami pelihara perhubungan ini...
berkekalan ke liang lahat dlm iman...
insyaAllah.
aminn...
=)

dream...

Little by little, I grow tired of the familiar pain,
Stepping on my shoulders so that I fall,
The world tells me not to dream,
I may not dream, or better yet,
I used to have no dreams,
that was the only way I could live,
For if I dream, if I love,
I know it will that much harder,
i too, want to be happy,
Doesn’t matter how much I try to quit,
My eyes keep lingering on it,
Continuing to dream,
is the only thing that i can do..
at least 4 now..

searching for the shooting star

the star shined....
and twinkled in the sky.....
before it started to fade away....

konflik diri jam 6.50 ptg - 11-00mlm...17 july.2009

tadi aku ke surau,
hadiri ceramah sempena israk mikraj,
mmg sengaja program diawalkn 2 hari, pada 25 rejab, hari ni,
umm,pada mulenye, seriously malas GILE nak kua umah,
seriously gile gile gile malas,
alasan, nak hantar ali pergi tusyen,
lepas mandi dan maghrib dirumah, tetibe terase nak pergi plak,
terus aku sarungkan baju melayu teluk belanga colour milky orange tuh,
n ajak mur, sekali, hantar fadzli tusyen cg rahman,and straight ke surau, time tu org baru tgh solat isyak,
mmg program nye bermula selepas solat isyak tu,
so maksudnye aku x terlewat la (terlewat skit kot),,
alhamdulillah,syukur aku atas nikmat hari ini,
setelah bebrape hari aku rase bagaikan kosong hidupku,
tah hape2 yg aku isikan sepanjang cuti ni,
aku pon x tau,
begitu lah Allah tunjukkan hidayah pade siape2 yg dikehendaki,
jika allah sayang pade hambanye,
akan diberikan hambanye tu kefahaman dlm agama,
pernah aku terdenga bait ini,
alhamdulillah,
di saat sewaktu penceramah menutur setiap2 kata2,
terdapat aku lihat pelbagai ragam manusia,
aya yg datang lewat,(contoh saye..=))
ada yg berbual2,
ada yg nak balik cepat,
ade yg rase bosan,
tapi bukan itu yg aku nak utarakan,
ada satu jasad ini,
yg pabile mendengar ceramah ustaz itu,
sebak terasa hingga dapt kubaca pada wajahnye,
tatkala itu, terasa bagai igin merembes keluar air mata ni,
mungkin dia juga sepertiku,
yg sudah lama x berpeluang mendengar ceramah dengan suasana seperti tadi,
aku juga naik sebak,
padahal bbercakap pasal isra' mikraj ,
sesuatu yg hampir tiap2 tahun kite denga,
tapi bebetul ke kite dalami ape yg kite bace dan denga,
bebetul ke kite andaikan keadaan kesedihan nabi ketike sebelum perkara itu,
bebetul ke kite hayati dan cube memahami perkara tersirat dlm mukjizat agung ini,
tu sume persoalan yg tetibe terlintas dlm pale aku td,,
tanye diri semula,
bebetul ke aku boleh terangkan pada saudara baru nnti kalau ada,
bagaimana sebenarnye isra' dan mikraj tu??
haih...malu pada diri sendiri..
kesedaran yg masih kurang,,,
semoga Allah terus berikan hidayah pade diri ini dan saudara2 saye yg lain2 juga,,
jgn di jauhkan dari redha dan lindungan yg maha Esa..
kuharap diri ini jadik insan yg benar2 boleh berfikir , terus memikirkan dan bukan hanye pada lisan... kalau Nabil raja lawak kate lu fikir lah sendiri, maybe saye cakap, kite fikir lerr sesame ye..=)
insyaallah,
amin...

home sweet home..

wah..
terubat rindu bile dapat jumpe ko..
lame kite x jumpe kan..
bukannye x sudi..
just mase je yg mencemburui kite..
ko cam still cool macam dulu..
makin berseri2 wajah..
makin lawa laa..
x tipoo nih..
betol2..
=)..
hihi..

but tu sume yg bermain dlm fikiran aku je,,
bile first jejakkan kaki kat samura..
=)...
woke up early dat day..
sebb bertolak dr JB pagi maa...
sardin drive..
muat 8 orang naik..

mmg macho la MPV sardin..
masuk dorm, jumpe cg2,

(dengan brother apiz,,, warden kami..=) )

(cg noraini panot n KAMI.... hihi..)

jumpe mak long pon=)..
pergi naik ke Melaka pulak, ikutkan je bebudak nih..
=)main bowling n makan katenyer..
hihi..aku fikir,, perlu ke sampai melaka..
haha..tapi 1/2 jam je so cam ok gak la..
alhamdulillah..

skit je lg nak strike,,,durh...=P




tapi lepas semua2 tu,
aku teringat balik ape yg pachy postkan lepas die pergi samura,
n i felt xzly the same cam mane die rase...
(mintak izin kamu yer copy ape yg ko tulis ci..=))

.8.) well....coming back to samura make me realize...bukn tmpt tu yg sye rindu..bukn skolah dan bgunnnye..bukn pdgnye...bukn jatek yg sye rindu....actually, sye cme nak blik kenangan bsama rakan2 dahulu. dormates, classmates, in fact, my whole batch...i miss those little childish fights we used to had..the gossips we used to share..the ghosts we used to be scared of...dan skarang...samura ttp samura...cme warganya suda berubah...n frankly speaking..i felt awkward..i dun feel the sense of belonging anymore...stepping to my old dorm was no different...detached...i miss u guys in school uniforms..i miss mak tem..slalu mrh2 kte dulu..i miss the old times...adeyh...sentimental lak...=)..well time is one of those few things that can't be retrieved back, ever....

aku pon terasa macam tu,,
tapi afterall, life kene diteruskan,
ciptaan allah itu akan sentiasa ada perubahan dengan izinNya,,
aku tetap berharap yg hati nih akan selalu menghargai apa yg aku rasai dan alami dekat sana..
smiles2 dari cg2, bualan dengan mak long dewan makan, even dengan abang yusri pembantu mkmal pon buat aku sangat gembire..
sangat2 gembire..terima kasih abah sebb make me choose this school leps PMR dulu..
kalau ikotkan hati, mmg x nak aku pindah,
"ala bah, skola mane2 pon same, yg nak belajar tu kite, bukan nyer sekolah..."
bile aku fikir2 balik, punye lerr kureng akhlak aku cakap ngn abah time tu..
betol cakap abah tu..
mintak maaf ngn abah dah=)..
starting from there baru aku macam mule mahu mencari siape diri ini sebenarnye,,
kehidupan itu x selalunye indah,
dan macam2 lagi norma2 yg surely x kan dapat klu aku x tinggal di asrama..tolong ya Allah, jadikkan aku hambamu yg bersyukur..
amin....
ok dah, maybe tulis lagi nnti kemudian..
moga hari2 akan datang menjadikkn kite manusia yg lebih baik..
=).
nsihat utk diri saya disini,,
jgn tinggal solat!!!=)..
salam..

pen off...

da nak start??

jadual baru dah keluar..
im in group 12.=)
alhamdulillah,,
cuti hari jumaat dan ahad..
sabtu ada biochemistry pulak..
bole pergi smayang dengan senng hati....
=)...
harap2 semua2nya baik2 aja..
alhamdulillah..
hihi..

seuntai kata untuk di rasa?

Kadang-kala Allah sembunyikan matahari,
Didatangkannya petir dan kilat,
Kita tertanya-tanya,
Kemana hilangnya si matahari,
Tanpa diri sedari,
Allah berikan dunia pelangi...

Kadang-kala Allah sembunyikan hikmah,
Didatangkannya cobaan dan ujian,
Kita tertanya-tanya,
Apakah hikmah disebalik kejadian,
Tanpa diri sedari.
Telahpun Allah limpahkan rahmat dan kesejahteraan..

it's a doa..

Ya Allah aku menyimpan kepadaMU apa yg telah Engkau ajarkn kepadaku . Maka Engkau kembalikanlah kepadaku pada waktu aku memerlukannya dan jgnlah Engkau jadikan aku terlupa kepadanya, wahai Tuhan semesta alam!



terime kasih pada da'ie2 penyebar & penegak al'din itu..semoga sentiasa dirahmati dan dikekalkan dlm iman..

aminn..

ingatan tulus ikhlas tidak lain tidak bukan
utk hati yg paling dekat dengan mulut yg berbicara dan jari yg menaip ini..
dan saudara2ku yg lain jua..